from a lady walking her child into the store

"You don't even know what vengeance means"

Quote of the day

Chess bitches

Quote of the Day:
don't hit me with the spoon. put the spoon away. i am talking to the spoon! put yourself away!

got nothing to really add to that... broke down and cried at work today... ghey

I CAN'T LEAVE YOU BREATHING!

Quote of the Day: Dont Fuck Me Then Chuck Me!
Quote of Yesterday: Mmm
Quote of before then: GIVE ME SOME BACKSEAT LOVIN TONIGHT!

So here is my current rewrite for the lyrics for SCREAM!

My teeth are on edge
and I'm breathing hard
hearts pounding
I'm gonna hate myself tonight

Smacked around bound in chains
A little pain goes a long way
Love's got nothing to do
with that I'll do to you

Twilight
Set in
Ready to begin
You're gonna be my greatest sin

Enough Foreplay

I Wanna Hear You Scream
With My hands around your throat
let me feel you plead and cry
trust me this will leave a mark

I'm the reason you're afraid of the dark
now scream


scream bitch scream
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OK that is what i have got so far...

bullet in the brainpain SQUISH

okay i knew today would be bad as of the whole, i can't spend it with or even express how i feel to the person who i adore more than anything else... but it got so much fucking worse so very fucking quick

i stayed up all night writing this fucking essay for writing comp because mom talked me into not dropping the fucking class... so i get a half an hour nap before i go to school...

i go to school, first bad thing is that this one chick who i have been decently cool with lately was a complete uber-bitch and actually said shit which hurt... but that just annoyed me

then i found out pocky died... mom told me and she then said she did something stupid/silly and mentions how she and dad were looking at these cute puppies... which makes me excited as i have been wanting one.. but naturally they got a new hamster..... its prolly for the best... all my animals hate me

i then go to my next class... i turn in my fucking essay.... to find out i have missed so much class that i cannot pass.... so i am told to just drop...

i then hang out with taylor and bo for awhile and i then realize that i cant hang out with anyone there anymore as i will be leaving directly after abnormal psych from now on... so that means that there is even less chances for me to make friends... yeah..

i go home and pass out for another half of an hour... i get dressed... i throw on some flip flops and hope it wont be a big deal...

it is... so dad has to drop off my boots...

i sit outside the store with a bummed clove and sing Slip Out... i haven't sung that in a long time... it still lets me smile though... just like it always has...

i go to work... its work.. and i get though the whole two hours i am there... and its fine

i get another customer in, a family... and their ensuing purchase takes another hour... not that it was a bad thing oh no... i sold a ds, insurance on that, a pre order they didnt need, and some games... all for this one fucking kid who was sooo spoiled... and the father wouldnt even buy his eldest a shonen jump... i gave her a link to mangavolume... i felt good about that.. jill logged in quickly as the girl finds she has enough to buy her jump

i sell everything finally... i got commission on the insurance, my numbers will look awesome... totally worth the time it took...

i settle down to do my numbers...


and when i reach my final transaction i see that jill... is still logged in

so i get nothing... the sale is in her name and we can't do anything...

an hour fucking wasted....


this day was so fucking horrid that it was actually able to take my mind off of how utterly insane i am over losing carla... that is how fucking shitty today was...

i drew carli a tattoo flash....

i hope she likes it...

i hope she loves it..

i hope she will love me..

fuck

valentine's day is tomorrow.... for some reason i am worked up over that

i wasnt expecting on spending this one alone....

edit:

and i had thought i was done with the crying part of this... but as soon as i realized the fact that i cant even give her a flower... a single fucking flower...

but thats all i can think about... how much i want to give her one....

just something so she knows i am here... so she knows how i feel...

it feels so wrong... i love her... and i wish i could express how i feel but i cant because it will hurt her... she doesnt want me to love her


mom is worried... so far she has suggested a shrink, anti depressants, and recently today... she suggested i may need to be institutionalized....

i cant let anyone know what i really feel


shes the only one who i can open up to

i need to scream

whoo!

Quote of the Day:

"It's angelic... wait is he raping my mom?!?"

So i have decided to start up my quote of the day again... I used to love doing these in high school and i have started writing the crazy shit i hear down... i am planning on turning this into a daily thing so even if i fuck up my posts there will hopefully still be quote... unless i sleep through the day.. in which case fuck you imaginary audience

so ummm yeah... i had a dream about carli.. i want to ask a question... not sure if i should... prolly will anyway tho..


I really need to not flirt with girls in relationships. bad mitch..

EDIT: w00t spore comes out sep 7 08... *dances a jig*

oh speaking of jig... ST PATTYS DAY 08 is gonna ROCK.... i am talking alcohol poisoning bitches!

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